I Want to keep my Memories

We all have those "things" that we keep around because we hold a strong attachment to them and we associate it with a memory. It could literally be anything but to you, looking at it makes you reminisce and look back at those great times you had that with someone or something. I just remembered that I lost my dad's Cannon camera and the family go-pro that still had content in them. I don't know what I'm more angry at the fact that I lost hundreds of dollars (that I have not yet told my family) or the fact that I lost hundreds of pictures and videos that I didn't get the chance to save. The last time I had the camera was in the annual Clarinet Christmas party at my friend Michelle's house and the last time I seen my go-pro was some time at school in my backpack.My friend throws way too many parties so I have little hope left that someone did not take it and I used the same backpack from when I went to Seattle and I didn't bother taking it out. Wow I'm stupid someone probably stole it or worse I dropped it somewhere. There's this one thing in particular that I filmed in the go-pro that I wanted to look back on when i'm older and it was a "last day of middle school"vlog that began with me in my mom's blue blouse next to the leather couch in my living room. And you know what? I looked damn good for that last day and I really wish I could have saved that video to show my children that one video. Yeah sure I have other videos but I just can't stop thinking about how I lost that one. My family also had so many pictures on our old 2013 iPad but the screen's broken now and we can't even get to the home screen. That was the iPad that held all of my memories from when I was in elementary and 6th grade. But I realized that at the end of the day, pictures and videos don't last forever... and sometimes memories don't either. Damn why do I have to be sentimentally attached to everything I own? That's why I'm a hoarder. What I'm trying to say is, I know that when I get older, my memories from long ago will soon fade. It sounds sad I know and that's the reason why I try my best to preserve everything/anything that reminds me of a certain moment. I'm already forgetful as it is. I want to keep my memories. One of the reasons I made this blog was for nostalgic reasons and to document who I am as a person at the age that I am now as I write this. You can tell I'm so worried about forgetting the little things. But at the end of the day, I'm just going to have move forward, live in the moment, and live in the now. I have so much time ahead of me to make more memories to reminisce about decades from now while I still can. Worrying isn't going to brink back what's already lost. Who knows, maybe Michelle will find the camera and maybe the go-pro will turn up somewhere in my bedroom of doom. At least I know that in the Afterlife before I enter the gates, I'll be able to look back/replay all of the decisions, the relationships, the friendships, and the best years of my existence then. I've learned that I shouldn't be sad that I lost these things, but to be glad that I was able to make those memories, even if i do forget about them.